"When people make you feel unwanted, don't leave to make them feel sad or guilty, they won't. Leave because you no longer have a reason to stay. Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not - won't. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you and more than they deserve." Anonymous
Some of you may be reading this blog and saying ok well boo hoo! Your ex-husband was a bad guy who left you for another woman. It happens, life goes on and you move forward. I am not writing this to let people know the kind of person my ex was to make me look good or whatever you want to call it. This is something that I hope helps other people be able to see that they are not alone! I have never wanted to crawl in a hole and just be done in my life.
As mad as I am at my ex-husband and all the things he did to me. I should thank him. Thank him for letting me go, he was not worthy of the love, compassion, or even the time he was given. Sometimes you have to stop and tell yourself that maybe this was for the best. Maybe there is someone out there who is going to make feel love like you never have before. There is another person that I should thank as I am writing this thank you to my ex. The other woman! It does not feel right thanking him without her. If not for her, this marriage may have ended another way or just been a marriage between two unhappy people.
When the reality of what was going on hit me, I found a letter that a woman wrote to the other woman. I wish I could remember who wrote it, if I do I will share the link. One of the reasons I loved her letter was that in all this heartbreak and sadness, she found a way to say thank you. One of the most profound things I read that she wrote was "Thank you for giving me a chance at another first kiss" isn't that something! Maybe I should have turned to God sooner for all of this anger and frustration. Maybe I should have been brought to my knees in prayer, but the truth is I didn't.
I was angry with God for a long time. How could he let this happen to me. First my marriage ending, my mother being diagnosed with cancer? How could I give praise to someone who would let this happen? Asking the wrong questions and not praying. Then like a lightbulb it went off in me. LET GO AND LET GOD!
